eating time... 

what's the use?

I have to get it, my daily/twice daily stick of cig... why can't it just stop?"yeah, that'll happen by itself!!" well........? I know, it is bad for everybody, and i havent slept for two days just thinking over the friggin' thing... It's like pondering on your bleak future, with the words 'failure' and 'asshole' hanging somewhere, just waiting to slam into your face. Oh well, another fact of life.

Three days until school, and I'm already contemplating my next 5-7 years into life. How will my results be? What course will I take? What job will I go for? Who, exactly will I marry? Will I have kids (if I do marry)? It's 100% bull in my head, with nothing to wash it all down...
I'm really sorry mom, dad for all the suprises and disappointments I repaid you with....... But I can't just sit here, can I?

Blogs are good. I only read mine and a couple of my friends. One of them likes to write, "i'm strong. i drink milo everyday". I don't know why, but it shows a lighter side of her, and she's a carefree person despite the hate, or anything, that is actually shown in her blogs.

Yeah, well... Three more days, dude. To what? I don't know... But what I know is, I want that glory, I want it all. I want the money, the wife, the kids, the life. I WANT THE LIFE.

-bad week, maybe, fergie??-

hello again...........
it has come to my deepest sadness that mon favorit equipe (my favourite team), manchester united, did not qualify for the uefa champs. league, and not even the fucking uefa cup.......
is it the managers fault, the players, the glazers or fucking benfica (the team that beat them by 1 fucking goal)? i donno....... is there a bright side to this?

let's see.... not getting 15 mil pounds in match fees n tickets, thats GOOD, isn't it? trophyless for the 3rd year running? (chelsea kompom menang EPL...) hmm... kene kutuk dengan EPL clubs that qualified...... suck it up, assholes!!!
huh.... not so bad, rite......

eeetttt! WRONG! IT IS A FUCKING DISAPPOINTMENT!!! n who shall we blame? benfica, thats who!! they were trailing from the very first minute, and they HAVE to come back and win the godforsaken match...... well, shit happens guys, n we the fans r really feeling it....... there's even calls to fire the old gaffer... don't u guys have a fuckin heart? sure, HE's heartless, u say fer sellin' that shitty goldenboots, becks...... but he brings fuckin glory for all the time he's been at the club... pete kenyon turned his back, some fans too.....(i even support chelsea.. just a wee bit)..... but leave him alone, guys.........
we need to be UNITED behind the club, ('cept when their losin' like motherfuckers, like leeds did, heh)...........

well, thats a day's worth of ranting n raving from me.......

till next time, ciao!!!

-cantona's coolie-

'lo! my first post her, people!!! ........ hmm.........
just got back from rompin, went fishin'.......... maybe it's boring, but i just like fishin', even if i can't get one. heheheh... never did.....

well, on other side of things, my fren azman, he got 13 t-shirts n tickets to rock the world 6, but i can't go........ not that it is that good, anyway.....
i'd rather sit at home, go for tuition, (yeah rite) n sit in front of this fuckin' computer coz i don't have nuthin' better to do......
chatted wif my old fren, liyana today........ just catchin' up on things, u know,
stuff....... her life, the hols, her bf (break konon!!) just goin' over things......

it's really goddamned boring, thats why i write these blogs...... my other fren, ilya, i donno whats her prob, or izit just a phase in a teenagers life, cuz her blog is, like, just so MAD!!! she's a really nice girl in person, tho', but her friends know her better.........
well, i just wanna say, izit really important, like, sucking up n getting 11-10 A's so just u can get rejected or not getting scholarships to some fancy-ass college or uni.? well, to me it is......... cuz i really want a good life...... but thinking again, will i be this fuckin' lazy my whole life? if i do, how can i live like i always wanna? it is a really shitty thing, life........ u jost donno, and for the moment u dont care.....

well, thats all for now..... got to get my daily stick of marlboro into my system...
(Yeah........ that feels so DAMN good!!!!!)

catch ya later

-bYe-